Me

shuddup

2006-06-11T03:39:00.000-07:00

words ringing in my ears.
they r irritating.

today was.. :S
ok. i was late for piano lesson..
all thanks to me myself n i.
slept at 1 last night, woke up at 7.30
:S
my eyes are torturing me
triple eye lid still.

went to payalabar..
(KIP MYSELF BUSY)
ok. den took e wrong train.
reach lavander den realise n change mrt..

does love make ppl stupid?
or should i say does fallin out of love make ppl dumb.?

haha. dun think bout it le.
since i lost nth..
but sumhow i still sad.
must physco myself i nt sad..
I AM HAPPY DE.

haha. 2days alone.
zzz.. downloadin maple.. :S
lol onli 30percent.. :X

yay. alex givin me his account..
lalala.
I NEED TO KIP MYSELF OCCUPIED.
ok.

oh ya. den i came home; preparin 2 go tkd training...
fall asleep..
n when i woke up.. its actualli 2.. i still can go.. (NT LATE)
but.. sumhow e more i sleep e more tired im..
zzz. n ended up sleepin again. :S
ok.

first day

2006-06-10T04:45:00.000-07:00

after 10 mths..
today is the first day i felt so relieved..

i m gonna tell e world tt..
I DUN LYK ANYBODY ALREADY..

IM AVAILBLE!!

sumtimes.. some words ain meant to b heard..
some words ain meant to hurt..

ppl say them.. wid deep thoughts..
ok. since they choosen tt . theres nth left for me 2 do but to...
go.

yesterday was a horrible night..
i cried from 12 to 3.

OK. HAPPY?
thou im left wid triple eyelid;
swollen eyes; im over it!!

yay? someone pls rejoy for me..
i dun wanna b sad cos of thos words.

im just fine moving forward.
i dun wanna waste ur time.

i just wanna noe tt u feel it too.
theres nth left to hide..

ok. mood swings.
last night. i thank xm 4 wakin up from her sleep 4 me...
i thank mic for chattin wid me in msn.
i thank anna for watchin worldcup wid me.

i thank JAMS.

thought over wad xm told me..
yes. im in e same boat wid her.
yes. im sad but couldnt show out.
yes. i should have let go.
yes. he dun lyk me.
yes. often cry for guys.
yes. find time to occupy e brain.

OK. i wanna b unique.
i cannot b sad..
must b happy. cos i have freedom
must b happy cos i can wid......

must b happy..
but. anna said...
i shouldnt use jr as sub..
but. wad if i want to..?
m i too selfish?

haiz. i kinda miss my grandson already..

sad

2006-06-09T08:30:00.000-07:00

im sad ok?

- my stamina dropped
-felt useless..
-mr goh's last training...

haiz. gt green gradin..
kena xm sm.. :X

mr goh my grader..
realised tt hes nt bad..
haha. still rmb he is my white belt grader..
last time i so scared him..
now i find him okok..

SOBS hes leaving.....
MY BEST FREND"s leaving...
if im nt wrong... 2dae is his last lesson..
:( i tot wah~ y he suddenly come trainin...
lyk veri long nv see him le..
in e end is his last lesson.....

i hate to see ppl leave tkd..
often im e saddest (i guess) but i m nt close wid e ppl..
im e saddest but nobody noes..
cos i dun show..

mr goh.. ty for ur care..
i sincerely wish u all e best for ur future..
do hope 2 see u.. (DUNNO HOW)..

the reason

2006-06-08T07:57:00.000-07:00

here's my warning..
do NOT listen to old songs..
some songs brings unwanted memories...

im listenin 2 'the reason'...
it was an old song.....
sent to me by...

ok. i was foolish enuff 2 believe..
n cos of tt it took me 1yr 2 trust others again.

often i tot i forgotton..
n now i realised i remembered all..

thos tears i wasted.
thos curse i cursed..
thos time i felt happy.
tt moment i felt wanted.
tt moment i just wanted to b dead..

someone asked me. if i hated her.
i said no.
but now i realised...
YES i hated her.
but i hated him more.

thos memories he gave haunt me.

back

2006-06-08T03:37:00.000-07:00

lol back to tis blog...
haha was readin e past posts..
:X hu m i refering? :X

laLAla.
hmm.. i lyk e bg music... =)

i wanna jot down tis feelin of mine..
b4 i 4get how it feels lyk...

mmm.. im feelin great.
super high..
=) haha. mayb tis is called 'xin fu' bah...

its 'ai mei'
''he shi gai qian jin; he shi gai fang qi.. nian yong bao de yong qi do mei you''

''well i wonder.. could it b.. when im thinkin bout u baby ur thinkin of me.. ''
(m2m- e dae u went away)

hmm..

believe me (song)

2005-11-16T04:48:00.000-08:00

Believe me, touched by god
Touched by you
You know i never asked you to
Believe in me, it's all i can do
Things you never said
And wanting you to reach out from the dark
To wake up from the cold
And wanting you is all i can do
Things you never said
Believe me, did we ever try?
Believe me, keep it all to yourself
Believe me, i never wanted to die
I'll take the note, the words that say i'm weak
That show i should have died
Crumpled in the fire
I'll take the note, it's all i can do
Things i never said
Believe me, did we ever try?
Believe me, keep it all to yourself
Believe me, i never wanted to die
So i'm burning up your pictures
Lay you in this shallow grave
So i'm washing clean your body
For the promises i never made
I'm burning up your pictures
Still my love remains the same

gone

2005-11-13T06:20:00.000-08:00

gone.
all gone.
gave up.
restarted a new relationship i supposed.
ya.
going to camp tmr.
bye.

heart broke.

2005-11-12T04:00:00.000-08:00

i lyk him.
since i lyk him, i forgive him.
since i forgave him, i let him do wadeva he wants.
since he done whateva.. i felt hurt.
since i felt hurt; i am hurt more.
since i m more hurt; i became more flirt.
since i am more flirt, i realised that there are more guys for me.
since i realised i begin to let go.
since i let go; he didnt sms me.
since he didnt sms me; i didnt sms him.
since then.. i am more hurt.
cos i might fell for other guy for him.
the other guy maybe just his sub.
since then..
i am heart broken.
i hated myself for this.
i hate myself.

angry

2005-11-11T02:47:00.000-08:00

i am seriously angry.
idiot.
kill me for me.
STAB me.
SLICE me.
HIT me.
BIT me.
i dun give a damn.

idiot ppl keep asking and they are annoying me.
i wantu kill.
ok. off for tkd training. i want sparring.
and i am serious.

depressed

2005-11-10T03:28:00.000-08:00

johnatan's leavin tkd.
i finally accepted him and then he's leaving.
the rain made me sad.
tomorro's bbq's postponed to mon.
i cant go. i have got camp.
well. not fated to go bbq with 1d.

Sorry..

2005-11-09T02:19:00.000-08:00

Sorry chunfui.
i promised to help u but found out tat i cant.
i am feeling guilty.
i accepted ur 'thanks'
..
sorry.

i am mad.

2005-11-08T02:16:00.000-08:00

they think that i am crazy.
but i think that i am mad.

i miss him bad.
i miss him.
i miss him..
i miss him.

i am not ok.

2005-11-06T21:19:00.000-08:00

i am worn out.
i am tired.
and i decided to give up.

dun find a need to find a job anymore.